159 Days Later

I believe the Great Flood from the Christian Bible, also known as Noah's flood, last for 40 days and 40 nights. Well, my lapse from blogging was a little longer than that. So let me catch you up with a quick bulleted list of the highlights by month:

• February 2007 - My partner tells me he no longer wants to be with me.
  
• March 2007 - My ex tells me he has found a new place and wants to break out agreement to wait to sell out house
• April 2007 - I pass the real estate salesperson exam; find a new apartment; list my house for sale; find out who my real friends are
• May 2007 - I sign an offer on the house; once again find out who my real friends are
• June 2007 - The house sells; I let go of the past

Now that you are all caught up, let's get to tonight's rant...wish I could say it was a rave and I guess in a way it is, but not in a good way though...

I recently discovered that two people very close to me have been hiding things from me. Both are new additions to my "collective" and both are very important to me. However, I am not sure that I have a right to know what they are withholding from me. While one of them is trying to get by as best they can, the other seems to be drawing me deeper and deeper into something I am not sure I am ready to deal with just yet. So do I try to confront or sit back and let the evnets unfold before me?

My faith in my own judgment is so fractured after recent events that I am no longer sure I can trust what I think or feel. But I remember my former therapist telling me that I should last time I was in this situation. But that was then, this is now, does the same still hold true regardless...