I was watching a film tonight in which the main characters life together was interrupted. In a letter one says to the other that their "story must go on." This reminded me of my senior thesis which has sat untouched for 10 years. The closest I came to working on it was weeks ago when I started reading it and could not get past two pages I was in so much pain as a result. But I realize that it is time for my story to go on.
The piece is subtitled "a play in one unspeakable act." I thought it appropriate referring to the past a unspeakable. Certainly I spent many years never discussing the transgressions of that time with a living soul. My thesis was my first attempt to open up. But I reached a brick wall that I have not had a chance to tear down.
Today is the first time I feel like the wall is starting to fall. I feel like this is now the time to complete this project that has been haunting me. I put my life on hold for so long and for so many reasons. But I am no longer willing to put my life on hold for anyone or anything. My time is now and my story deserves to go on.
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