No more fear...

Tomorrow is the big day.  I am forcing myself to open myself up for a major rejection the likes of which I have not known in ages.  Tomorrow I could be a living incarnation of tonight's blog pic and you know what?  That's ok.

I have spent the first few months of this journey thinking that I was again in the right place at the wrong time.  Then IT happened.  But then became a more right time but the right place had moved on me.  To be honest though, I have no idea if this is right or wrong or moved or stable or anything anymore.  All I know is that I need to get the words out before I lose my nerve.

Tonight there was a slight, possibly major breakthrough.  It's so hard to tell in this situation, since even the constant lacks consistency.  In any case, it is just under 24 hours from now that I will be in THE place and it will be THE time to lay down my cards and call the bluff.  Yeah, I think that is what this has all been from the beginning now -- one big bluff.  Winner takes...?