Another one bites the dust...

So today is yet another banner day in my weird roller coaster I call a life.  Today I found out one of my bosses was leaving the firm.  While I wish her well, I just cannot help but wonder, where in hell is this going next?  The financial, the relationship, and now the work cycle, all repeating themselves.  I cannot even begin to imagine what is next.

I remember this time last year I was feeling insecure about my place at work for fear I was still being held to my predecessor's perceived greatness.  This year, I am just hoping I will have a job now that one of the bosses is leaving.  With all the financial trouble I am in right now, this would not be a good time to be getting laid off.  But wouldn't that just be the topping on the cake of this very deja vu like period in my life.

So I keep wondering if all of these little and not so little negatives are just a way to prepare me for a super huge positive at the end of the week.  I am of course speaking of the very big news to drop on a friend this weekend.  Or this this all a fatalistic warning to not go there.  But at this point, what left do I have to loose.