What does it mean when you start believing the lies you have been asked to live with for so many years? Is it a sign of losing your mind? Acceptance of and internalizing of the lies themselves? Or is it simply that the lies have become more real than the the truth?
I recently had the experience of telling someone new the lies that my partner and I have created over the years to rationalize our relationship to his friends and family.
I have told these lies a number of times before and always had a lump in my throat as I did so.
But this time was significantly different. I actually believed the lies myself. I am beginning to become very worried that the day I had always feared coming - that I no longer care. But now a new question is raised for me -- why do I care that I do not care?
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