I want to get off...

Tonight's blog pic is of a merry-go-round.  Similar to the one I used to use as a child at Memorial Park.  I was known for being able to spin it faster than anyone else.  Who knew this would become a metaphor for my life.

I know that my life is feeling very out of control and that I want to get off the merry-go-round for a bit.  It is not so much the work or the financial shit hole or even my lack of a proper love life.  I think it is just that as I am reaching another birthday, I want to have my life slow down so I can take stock of where I am, were I want to go.  Especially since it has been about a year since the 4.5  year experiment in domesticity.

It has been over 10 years since I graduated college and been living in Seattle and it is time that I get my world in focus on what I want for me for once and stop adjusting my life to satisfy those around me.  It is me time.  Self-help guru like, yes, but damn it, it's time!