Inspirational programming...

I have been watching the new BBC America show Jekyll. It is a modern day adaptation of the Jekyll and Hyde story. It is amazingly well written, acted, and produced. It is insanely inspirational television. So why did I choose this as a topic tonight?

Well, the basic premise of an inherent duality in all of us being manifested to an extreme appeals to me. I sometimes feel that I have spent part of my life being a combination of two extremes of myself. I do not have a magic potion or specific set of criteria that sets off the change between my personalities, but I do feel like I have friends who only know a certain side of me.

I know what you are all thinking that I am being my over analytical self. But inspirational programming tends to get me thinking how it can relate, or in this case reflect, on my own life. I think that my duality is beyond the standard level of friends seeing levels of you situation. I truly think that I have developed a distinct duality in my life as a way to deal with my past and my present.

Why would I need two sides to deal with my past and present? Well, part of it has to do with the trauma of growing up and part of it is dealing with the person I think I want to be. I sometimes wonder if integrating my Hyde into my Jekyll would do me any good in functioning better. Then there is the most of the time that I just do not have the energy to even think about it.

Is that a sign of Hyde winning or Jekyll resigning?