Emotionally unstable...

I just finished watching the Season Finale of Doctor Who on Sci-Fi Channel. Last season ended in a very shocking fashion. This season totally topped it. So much so that in the last five minutes I started to cry. The same type of crying I did when I saw Bobby and watched the series finale of Six Feet Under.

Each time this normally happens it is because I am having an emotional reaction to the events in the story so much so that it is reminding me or more appropriately, forcing me to face some realities in my life I am not wanting to deal with at the moment.

The issue that caused today's outburst - the Doctor was leaving behind someone he loved very much in order to save their life. Not that I am in a life or death situation, but I am beginning to wonder if leaving someone I love right now (or in the near future) would be what is in that person's best interests. I am extremely torn on this point, since I know for sure it might be in my best interests.

I have been struggling with this issue for some time now and the more I allow myself to open up about it with people, the more confused I get about what is the right thing to do.

Maybe I just need to have a really good cry so that it all cam come out of my system in one movement. But is there anything out there that is THAT emotionally charged to melt my ice cold heart...