A most Faustian deal

The story of Faust, a man who sells his soul for worldly gain, only to realize at the end he may miss it, is timeless.  I find myself now in a similar Faustian situation which my head knows may be a bad idea, but my heart is willing to try in order to give myself some peace to my soul.  Can there be any more eternal struggle than that?

I have fought hard and long to achieve some semblance of stability in my life and I feel lately that it is all slipping away from me -- again!  Several times before this cycle has played out and each time I have not come out for the better on the other end.  But this time I hope it will be different.

Unlike the times before though, I am in a solid career path, I think.  I am in a place where I no longer fear being along, I hope.  I am fighting for more than just me now, I know.  Oh what a tangled web we weave...