One more nail in the coffin

It is funny how the finish line in life can mean so many different things, all depending on the context.  For me today, I had two events that could be a raising of the checkered flag for me.  One was the finality of a case tat was sucking the life out of me and the second is an opportunity that may prevent me from falling deeper into my financial abyss.

What makes life even more strange is that I had run across the opportunity before, in a different context, and now here it is again before my eyes.  The opportunity sounds like it could be both financially satisfying and professionally developing.  Is this what I have been searching for or in the alternative, my karmic due?

Emotionally I remain empty and I do not like this feeling.  With the completion of some and the advancement of others, my emotional emptiness is not improved.  Will this feeling never change?  Will I always feel dead inside?  Will there ever be a finishing line for the pain that I feel...